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After my appointment today I am almost 100% sure I don’t want to have a bone marrow transplant. There was not one positive thing that happened today except I learned that there’s no surgical procedure involved. Every other bit of news was horrific. I spent the entire two and a half hours in tears listening to how awful my life would be after the transplant. No fucking thank you.



In school they teach you
how to multiply 9x8
make you read Macbeth
and have you memorize the first 10 amendments to the constitution.

But they don’t teach you how to
stop loving someone who has
stopped loving you
or how to deal with losing
a friend to an unsaid goodbye
and a relative to a cancer that ate
away their brain.

At home I learned from my father that
alcohol can make as many problems
as it solves
but damn does it feel good
to let my throat burn instead of my heart
and to tune out the problems in my head
that I just couldn’t solve.

Because life isn’t 9x8 
and it isn’t the way authors describe
their characters in a story.

It’s those nights you lay awake
missing someone
wishing things could be different
and it’s the next day when you realize they can’t
and then it’s how you pick yourself up
after being down for so long.

I taught myself that.


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ctenocyst:

Need. This. Now.

ctenocyst:

Need. This. Now.

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Really really don’t want to go to this appointment. Feeling super anxious currently.



silverpinesoapshop:

silverpinesoapshop:

Introducing our Amortentia soap!
In the world of Harry Potter, Amortentia is a love potion that smells differently from person to person, based on what they find attractive. This soap, however, smells like our personal Amortentia; rain, fresh cut grass, black tea, and just a hint of jasmine. It smells like wet spring day, and will leave your skin feeling and smelling amazing!

We’re bringing it back! You guys seemed to LOVE this soap, so we’ve restocked it! Check out our shop to get your hands on some before it sells out again!

silverpinesoapshop:

silverpinesoapshop:

Introducing our Amortentia soap!

In the world of Harry Potter, Amortentia is a love potion that smells differently from person to person, based on what they find attractive. This soap, however, smells like our personal Amortentia; rain, fresh cut grass, black tea, and just a hint of jasmine. It smells like wet spring day, and will leave your skin feeling and smelling amazing!

We’re bringing it back! You guys seemed to LOVE this soap, so we’ve restocked it! Check out our shop to get your hands on some before it sells out again!


One other thing that RJ said tonight made me cry. He said he felt really bad about not ever asking me how I’m feeling in regards to me being sick and going through chemo, and the reason he doesn’t do it is because he doesn’t want to deal with it or think about it. I was upset at first, but then he kind of clarified. He said he knows that everyone else in the world is like, “oh, how are you? how’s treatment? poor you, do you need anything?” etc. Which is true. Even my own sister. Every time I try to talk to her about something, her response includes something along those lines. He said he doesn’t want to make me feel like a child who can’t take care of myself, because he knows I’m a “grown ass woman who can handle her own shit”, but if I ever do need help, just to ask and he’ll be there for me. I definitely started crying, and he could tell, and he felt bad but I told him I’m just emotional and it wasn’t a bad thing. I told him he’s one of very few people who still treat me the same as before, and I appreciate it so much. 

I’m just so thankful to have him in my life. I truly am. 

Now I’m going to bed before I make any more posts about this wonderful man and drive you all insane. 



RJ started talking about how he wants to make some changes in his life, health wise, and morally, and for a split second I let myself think he was going to ask me to be his girlfriend officially, and I got so excited. Then he said the reason he didn’t text it to me was because he didn’t want me to think that he wanted me out of his life, which I totally understand. But the fact that taking things further didn’t come up made me so irrationally sad. I’m happy the way things are. Granted I’m a bit confused, but I’m happy. I don’t know why I let that get to me so much.



unskinny:

theabsintheraven:

arineat:

dragonlordoferebor:

elvenkingthrandy:

thecumbercookieaboveallothers:

mindtriggers:

THIS WILL BE SUCH A LONG MARATHON AND I AM SO READY

That’s prob about 12 hours

extended lotr alone is 11 hours and 22 minutes.

to watch the extended versions of both the hobbit and lord of the rings it would take roughly 20 hours i can’t wait 

I know at least two people who’ll undoubtedly try to marathon the extended editions of these films.

Babe!
pppttimbatman
we need to do this!!


It’s going to happen, even if I have to do it by myself.  

Happening ASAP 👌👌

unskinny:

theabsintheraven:

arineat:

dragonlordoferebor:

elvenkingthrandy:

thecumbercookieaboveallothers:

mindtriggers:

THIS WILL BE SUCH A LONG MARATHON AND I AM SO READY

That’s prob about 12 hours

extended lotr alone is 11 hours and 22 minutes.

to watch the extended versions of both the hobbit and lord of the rings it would take roughly 20 hours i can’t wait 

I know at least two people who’ll undoubtedly try to marathon the extended editions of these films.

Babe!
pppttimbatman
we need to do this!!

It’s going to happen, even if I have to do it by myself.

Happening ASAP 👌👌


Hearts are wild creatures, that’s why our ribs are cages.
Unknown  (via elevatedencouragement)

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I have a slight yarn obsession. Most will be used on my blanket, but still :p

I have a slight yarn obsession. Most will be used on my blanket, but still :p



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kendrickruleseverythingaroundme:

ji-bril:

I wanna be da papa u can be da mom

THIS SONG IS FIRE..

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